So it has been a while since I have last updated my readers on the happenings in my life, and to those who wake up daily looking forward to reading about a piece of my life, I am truly sorry. I will try and do a more consistent job. I feel as though the last week has faced me with a lot of life lessons, questions about the past and the present, and new decisions to make. So lets start from the beginning and I hope that I do not confuse you as I am feeling a little overwhelmed myself at this point.
First thing- So I started and ended my new dating experience with this guy I just met rather quickly. This whole dating thing is rather new to me, and I don't really know how to react when it does not go well. I have never been on a bad date, and that is why I do not have a lot of dating experience; just relationship experience...BIG difference. This dating adventure with this particular guy (later he will be referred to as Ahole) started with our first date last Wednesday. We decided to meet at a location to have some drinks and talk. Of course, when I first saw him, he was not exactly what I had anticipated, but I was trying to keep an open mind. We sat down and ordered drinks and the date was off and running. The first thing that I notice were his unusually girly hands. I do not know why I have this weird obsession with hands, but I do and I could not get over his. This guy also had a particular way of pronouncing and dragging out all his words. It was driving me absolutely crazy!!! The date lasted a couple of hours and toward the end he asked me on a second date. I said yes, hoping that I would be able to not pay attention to the hands, and maybe the annoying way he talked was just a result of first date jitters. He definitely won some points when he walked me to my car that was out of the way in pouring rain, so I had hoped that this was a sign of good things to come...boy, was I WRONG!!!
Second date- It is now Saturday and we had decided to go see a movie and meet for some drinks at his place beforehand. That was my biggest mistake of this whole experience...DO NOT meet at some one's place you barely know. So once I got there the awkwardness had started. We were really struggling for conversation which resulted in me just drinking my beer more frequently in hopes to soothe my misery. I had only been there about 5 minutes when he sits down next to me and goes in for the first kiss!!! What a dumb ass!!! Who goes in for the first kiss at the beginning of the second date?!?! I wasn't even for sure I wanted to hold his girly hands, let alone kiss him, but I did since I felt like I had no other option. Thank goodness he was a good kisser or I might have just called it the end right there. Next we went to the movie (Robin Hood) which was ok, but definitely too long for this date and FREEZING!!! After the movie was over we walked back to his car and it felt like the longest walk of my life. We had nothing to talk about, and when I would try and lighten him up with a joke or my famous sarcasm he just looked at me and wouldn't even smile. We went back to his condo (big mistake #2), and within 5 minutes he was aggressively kissing me on the couch. When he started to get very touchy, I interrupted him to remind him what type of girl I am and he didn't seem to care and just started kissing me again. We ended up horizontal on the couch with him on top of me and being way too aggressive. I tried to politely, but firmly stop him multiple times to tell him that I wanted to go home and he begged me to stay. Finally I got him to give me directions out of there and get off of me so I could leave. This is now when we refer to him as Ahole. I left in a hurry and ended up getting lost downtown while crying my eyes out. All I could think about was how stupid I felt for letting myself get into that situation and all the horrible things that could have happened. All I wanted to do was talk to someone that I knew and trusted and get my ass home!!!
An update- So thank goodness the Ahole has not tried to contact me. I am still quite traumatized from that night and I think I will be taking a break from dating right now. I need some time to recover!!! That's it for now~Kimberly
First thing- So I started and ended my new dating experience with this guy I just met rather quickly. This whole dating thing is rather new to me, and I don't really know how to react when it does not go well. I have never been on a bad date, and that is why I do not have a lot of dating experience; just relationship experience...BIG difference. This dating adventure with this particular guy (later he will be referred to as Ahole) started with our first date last Wednesday. We decided to meet at a location to have some drinks and talk. Of course, when I first saw him, he was not exactly what I had anticipated, but I was trying to keep an open mind. We sat down and ordered drinks and the date was off and running. The first thing that I notice were his unusually girly hands. I do not know why I have this weird obsession with hands, but I do and I could not get over his. This guy also had a particular way of pronouncing and dragging out all his words. It was driving me absolutely crazy!!! The date lasted a couple of hours and toward the end he asked me on a second date. I said yes, hoping that I would be able to not pay attention to the hands, and maybe the annoying way he talked was just a result of first date jitters. He definitely won some points when he walked me to my car that was out of the way in pouring rain, so I had hoped that this was a sign of good things to come...boy, was I WRONG!!!
Second date- It is now Saturday and we had decided to go see a movie and meet for some drinks at his place beforehand. That was my biggest mistake of this whole experience...DO NOT meet at some one's place you barely know. So once I got there the awkwardness had started. We were really struggling for conversation which resulted in me just drinking my beer more frequently in hopes to soothe my misery. I had only been there about 5 minutes when he sits down next to me and goes in for the first kiss!!! What a dumb ass!!! Who goes in for the first kiss at the beginning of the second date?!?! I wasn't even for sure I wanted to hold his girly hands, let alone kiss him, but I did since I felt like I had no other option. Thank goodness he was a good kisser or I might have just called it the end right there. Next we went to the movie (Robin Hood) which was ok, but definitely too long for this date and FREEZING!!! After the movie was over we walked back to his car and it felt like the longest walk of my life. We had nothing to talk about, and when I would try and lighten him up with a joke or my famous sarcasm he just looked at me and wouldn't even smile. We went back to his condo (big mistake #2), and within 5 minutes he was aggressively kissing me on the couch. When he started to get very touchy, I interrupted him to remind him what type of girl I am and he didn't seem to care and just started kissing me again. We ended up horizontal on the couch with him on top of me and being way too aggressive. I tried to politely, but firmly stop him multiple times to tell him that I wanted to go home and he begged me to stay. Finally I got him to give me directions out of there and get off of me so I could leave. This is now when we refer to him as Ahole. I left in a hurry and ended up getting lost downtown while crying my eyes out. All I could think about was how stupid I felt for letting myself get into that situation and all the horrible things that could have happened. All I wanted to do was talk to someone that I knew and trusted and get my ass home!!!
An update- So thank goodness the Ahole has not tried to contact me. I am still quite traumatized from that night and I think I will be taking a break from dating right now. I need some time to recover!!! That's it for now~Kimberly
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