So today was a busy, but fun day! I worked the night before, and I was exhausted when I got home this morning. I got a few hours of sleep and then it was off to volleyball practice. This is the first practice we have had since we qualified for nationals a month a go. It was great to see my girls again and I absolutely love the look of excitement when they walked through the door and saw me. The gym we practiced in was not air conditioned very well so it was a little steamy. The girls were kind of struggling to make it through the whole practice so I decided to end a little early. After practice I drove straight to Blue Springs to get ready for the Royals game. And yes, for those of you that have been following, I went to the game with AS. This was the first time we have seen each other since Memorial Day, and I was so excited that I had butterflies in my stomach.
At the game, we had really good seats, but it was sticky hot outside. AS made a new little friend with a 9 month old girl sitting in front of us that could not take her eyes off him. She was such a little flirt! He does so well with kids and had this girl giggling non-stop. The game was tons of fun, but unfortunately the Royals lost, but it was still worth it.
After the game, AS and I went back to his house where we both showered (separately for all of you that have dirty minds, lol) which was much needed after how sweaty we both were after the game. AS then suggested that we go outside to sit on his deck so we could talk and watch a storm roll in. It was so relaxing to just lean back, look up at the cloudy sky, listen to the trees wrestle, and feel a storm coming in. We talked about a variety of different things...family, school, work, religion, relationships, and funny stories. I love being able to sit next to someone and feel comfortable enough to let silence stay silence. After a while, AS looked over at me and asked me if I was cold, and I was, so I said yes, and he asked me to come sit with him. So now, I am sitting there on AS's lap with his arms wrapped around me, feeling so right about this situation. We sat there and talked, listened to the wind and trees, and just enjoyed being back in each other's arms for another hour. I soon went home afterwards.
We still have not officially established what we are, but I am ok with that. I know that we both know how we feel about each other, and that is all we need. I am sure we will have a conversation about it soon, but as of right now we are just living in the moment and I am enjoying every single minute of it!:) That's it for now, stay tuned! ~Kimberly

Memorial Day Brings Surprises...

Since my last update, I have spent some more time with AS and I am feeling confused more than ever. We have said that we are just "friends," but we have also agreed not to see other people right now. So I really do not know what we are. Last night I went over to AS's house thinking that it would just be the two of us hanging out together, and maybe I would see his parents since he does live with them, but something happened that I totally wasn't expecting...seeing his son. It took five long months to meet his son when we originally started dating, and then it was touch and go trying to get to know him and get him to trust me, but adventually it happened and we became very close. When AS and I had broke up four months ago, dealing with the sudden absence of his son in my life was one of the hardest things I have had to do. So I was not really planning on seeing his son in this current situation until we figured out our own issues. I thought I had made that clear to AS when we previously discussed this topic, but being a typical guy, I don't think he understood. So when I arrived at AS's house, I was completely surprised to see his son, but decided to go with the flow. Although my head knows that spending time with his son isn't the best idea, my heart was very excited and loved spending time with him.
I went over there thinking that we would go to dinner or just hang out at his house, so I dressed as I typically would choosing to wear white shorts, an aqua blue tank top, flip flops, earrings and necklace, and my hair down. Then of course, I ended up fishing and playing baseball with the boys...there went looking cute and smelling decent, lol! After we were done playing outside, we went inside and his parents asked us if we were ready to leave. Leave? Leave where? I had no clue where we were going. AS also forgot to mention that his parents were going to take us out to dinner for Memorial Day. Now, not only am I sweaty and do not particularly smell my best, but I am going to a family dinner! His parents were so excited that we were all going to dinner together, I couldn't say no, so off to dinner I went. They took us to Texas Roadhouse and it was delicious. After dinner we went back to his house and the three of us played the Wii until it was his son's bedtime. AS and I hung out for little longer, and then I decided to leave.
I was upset with AS for his lack of communication with me and understanding of why I thought spending time with his son and family was a big deal. I still have not told my family that we are talking, and will probably keep it that way until we make a set decision about our relationship. That is it for now. Stay tuned for more updates!~Kimberly